Last night, I went to a Gothic party in Amsterdam (I should have made pics, cause I looked sooo good ;-) hehe there goes my attitude again.)
I noticed a few things and could give you lots of examples of everything, but I wanted to keep it short.
To give an example:
When someone is trying (it seems) to turn left on the road, he has to turn left or not, but please don't hesitate so that I don't know which side to pass him..it's IRRITATING ME!!
Do something or don't do something, but don't ever do it just half way.
Everything will turn out to be okay later, if you are yourself, destiny will come. What has to happen, will happen. The best thing you can do is always follow what you feel. Reason is there to help what you feel, and not the other way around. Intuition is always right.
If you do everything that feels good, you get energy out of it, and things you like to do, say alot about who you are. And the best thing you can become is yourself. To develop yourself from a little rosebud to a beautiful flower.
Their behavior is so bad, I am now kissing far more girls then men. I also feel much safer with girls because they don't assume and expect so much. Guys are trying and often don't know how to behave anymore, making me think that they seek their strength in chatting with other guys and being "tough". The male pride. Terrible! And many men don't know how to behave as a GUEST in other peoples houses. Be humble in the right situation, it makes you look graceful.. Be yourself and respect others.
They give a very long explanation if you expect a simple "sorry". Why do men always start explaining when a hug or a nod or a sorry is okay too? If you have a problem, or someone else has a problem: or pain, the first thing I do is give it a little hug.. (but I always tend to forget this rule: leave the responsiblity with the people who are reall responsible for it, not the whole world is always MY problem)
After all, the little child I was, the little Viola, who has done things I would never do if I knew back then what I know now, who sometimes gets irritated or is learning so little at a time , was also just a little girl who tried to do things the best way she knew. Trying as hard as she could to do things as perfectly as possible. So I love her too.
I'm unpredictable. I always try to be very clear in an honest and brief way to people. There are no problems.
It is better to have an honest friend than a friend who always tries to be friendly to you.
In the end things will go wrong. Never run away, confront and briefly say what you think: For instance in a bar: Stop following me, I don't like you.. Or I get bitchier : I think you're confusing me with someone who DOES like to talk to you./ You're ugly, you smell, get lost./ Can you please shut up, it's beginning to stink here.
Okay, sometimes I say these things to VERY annoying men who really deserve it. Not to little shy guys. I can be very shy to from time to time.
Sometimes you have got to hurt people to give them love in the end. When you always want LOVE as your main purpose (YIN), you also have to accept and cuddle the pain, the lack of love (YANG). There are always 2 ways to get somewhere; accept that there is a YIN way and a YANG way. There is a wall, and there is no wall (the wall doesn't blocks my thoughts or feelings). If you want to speak out loudly, in front of you, accept and know that you have a back. And this is not the truth, it is the truth and it is not the truth. Always stay open for more truths. People can never have a strong opinion, as there are more truths. So never be stubborn, just live and be you. Enjoy, lay down and submit to every situation.
Always busy with myself and other people and learning, I am still doing lots of things wrong.
But...
I'm very happy and love everything and everybody, I see their errors as childly clumsiness, and sometimes am also very disappointed, and think most people are stupid cows and will never dare to be open..
okay..just had a bad weekend and really seem to have a terribly wrong taste for guys. (Yes yes! The woman has a weak spot!)
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