You wonder who I am, don't you? All YOU can see is an image of me:

Here you can see 2 very recent movies I made in mp4. ( you can use Windows Mediaplayer or Realplayer to view them)

me at Dynamo Open Air
(I won't tell you more about my festivals because most of the time I was doing so many different things,
sometimes I filled my days with tripping on mushrooms, but all the times I made my own good times.
I'm always dressed in  "fishnet-tights"and fire-red lipstick, maybe you'll recognize me!)
Please click on this pic and donate free food!

You can see me soon in real life if you want:

I WAS here, yes it was in 1999, you totally MISSED it!!!

Some people called me arrogant for having so many pics online.
I always like to make things clear, and for those people, if they had just read the first page better,
they would have seen I sometimes do some modeling.

And, on top of this, it's MY page. I like it. I want my page to be an approximation to what I am.

I'm pretty, so what, I couldn't help it. Believe me, it's sometimes harder to find a job here when you look good.
Several times people made me their obsession. And that almost killed me.

I think I've wept the necessary tears, and if not, I will someday.
I'm not afraid of pain, I'm not afraid to learn, I'm not afraid to live.
I think I can permit myself to seem slightly presumptuous and obstinate on a website.:-)

Thinking about it, I have never intentionally hurt someone. And I'm almost famous for giving  too much and taking too little for myself, I'm too generous towards people.

So: I am really cute and stuff, at least, I'm really ME.

A piece of a chat of Emma and me:

Viola says:
People sometimes think I'm very arrogant if I talk happily about me
when I'm talking about stuff I'm happy with
More and more people think that's rather odd but sometimes nice
Thinking of it, I sometimes get lots of comments about it
"I looked SO good on that party"
one is not allowed to say that
strange..
but well..
Lots of people call ME "open" but never talk about themselves (but they do talk alot about others, and I hardly talk about others, don't like gossip)

Emma says:
I can imagine that you get comments about that..
Because people who don't know you may be thinking that that is arrogance indeed.
But the people who do know you, know that it is really spontanity and sometimes timidity
I love it when people can speak spontaneously and freely about themselves
because I like to listen
I am more a listener than a talker.

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besides, about my comments about macho men. Until I became 18 years old, I always had more male friends then female friends because men are much straighter, much more to the point. And I liked that very much. I didn't understand women at all (Now I think they're the most wonderful creatures in the world!). And I always was more like a boy, I used to climb every tree, played zorro, I am now a math teacher and a real computernerd, I think I recognize a lot of the
good-ment behaviour of men and their childish clumsiness in myself :)) What people see and write is really a mirror of themselves, so this is probably too.

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all pictures on my site were made without any photomanipultaion., so all the zits are real :-). Everything on my site is copyrighted.

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